Mid Week Break with God

I'm glad I made it for lunch time mass today. I usually go for the 12.15pm session, and as of noon was still very much buried with work. There was an urgent deadline today which needed much drilling in & analysis & a consolidation of 3 regions, I really wanted to faint just thinking about the exercise. It almost seemed like mission impossible when I started on this piece of work this morning. But probably God had a message for me today, cos for some reason, my mind became clearer and I managed to pretty much wrap up in time for the 1.15 session.

Today's sermon was very enlightening for me.

1. Your sufferings will be short for I will provide you with comfort. When I first heard this, honestly it felt bitter sweet, cos I feel this journey of single parenting for me has been very tough, very emotional, very painful. Sometimes, it almost feels like I cant continue anymore. But with prayers, I hope I will feel comfort & strength to pull myself together and pursue on, and hopefully, there will be a solution for our family.

2. We loose ourselves when we do not pray. I reflected back on my days of despair, and i realised that I did pray, but maybe not hard enough, maybe not trusting enough.

And so I am really thankful for my mid week break with God today. I came out feeling lighter, a burden lifted off my shoulders, though the day wasn't any easier for me and juggling housework & an active toddler wasn't any less challenging....but it felt better somehow. I also just signed up for a 10 session Parenting course which is organised by the Catholic Prayer Society which starts in May... looking forward to be enlightened, though honestly I am abit apprehensive about all that sharing I may need to do. But who knows? maybe there are others out there who are worse off than me from whom I can learn from, or this could be a start for me to get more support & encouragement?

To end off this post with something light hearted, here's a silly conversation I had with Isabelle tonight!
Me: Isabelle, did you tear your book?
I: NOOOOOOO (then gives me a sneaky smile)
Me: Mummy is pasting the page back now. Don't do it again ok?
I: NOOOOOO (waving her little finger at me)
Me: What if you do it again? Can mummy punish you?
I: NOOOOOOO (sneaky smile again)
Me: But if you do something wrong, mummy needs to punish you right?
I: *silence*......NOOOOO, say Sorry Mummy, followed by a really sneaky smile
And yes, she does know that she needs to say sorry immediately if she does something wrong :)