You have hidden these things from the learned and revealed them to mere children

You have hidden these things from the learned and revealed them to mere children!

This was the message of today's homily. God ask us to be childlike for Him to reveal himself to us, for us to be meek and humble in heart. How can we still be childlike, when we are obviously maturing adults? By simply surrending ourselves to him. As adults, we are often bogged down by our past which we cannot let go, worried about a future of which we have no control of. If only we live in the present and have trust in the Lord for the Lord forgives our past and in His Providence, will provide for our future - what more can we ask for?

Today's homily touched me deeply. I felt the message in His words. I started going for lunch time mass a couple of weeks ago. I am not holy, and I am not trying to be holy. But over the past year, especially since Isabelle was born... more than ever, I felt God's presence in my life. I felt Him walking the journey with me. In the Lord I trust, and He has made many things impossible....possible for me. There were many things I did not want, circumstances I did not want to be in... but in trusting Him, I have seen His goodness and how He has plans for each and everyone of us.

(1) I never wished for D to be away from us, that was the toughest decision we ever had to make. After convincing D that he should quit his job and get a job which did not require him to be based in China..., the irony of it all, he gets a good offer 5 months later, which requires him to be based back there again. Though we started off with some misunderstandings, I would say, our relationship has strengthened, and we truly appreciate every chance to spend as a family together. Through God's grace, our family has grown closer, and very fortunately, Isabelle is still close to her daddy.

(2) Leaving Isabelle under a maid's care with no supervision is the scariest decision any parent can ever make. I did it by surrendering to the Lord. I pray for her safety and give thanks for everyday that she is safe and well. We of course are not taking further risks, and by God's grace managed to secure a place for Isabelle in a child care nearby to our home. I am also thankful that I work for an employer which has flexible work arrangements, and though I have not asked for part time work... I am pretty confident it can be approved. And this is God's blessing to me, that I still have a job to contribute to the household, while being able to be a good mother to my child.

(3) Coping on my own... honestly I don't know how I do it. It's tough being a working mother, rushing home everyday, having a hurried dinner to spend a precious 1 hour with Isabelle, then loggin in from home to wrap up some work...and the cycle continues. Groceries on weekends on my own, sometimes with up to 5 bags. Planning the daily/weekly meals. Bringing Isabelle out for play. Running errands. Wow... again God made it possible, that I have the energy to do all this myself, that I have the strength to push on without falling sick. In surrendering to the Lord, I realise that everyday I am able to stretch myself a little bit more.

I know all the above and much more unmentioned are the works of the Lord. And more than ever today, I wanted to write this out, lest I forget the importance of the Lord in my life. I pray and hope I can be an even better person, better wife, better mother, better daughter, better sister.