Updates on the family

Updates on the family.... we made a big decision a week ago. Hubs will be taking a short term assignment overseas for 1 year. To me, it was a very difficult decision to make, to let him go to pursue his career. The last 6 months has been so precious to me, and now we are going back to the my pregnancy days, to the early months of Isabelle, when I have been both mother & father to Isabelle, looking after every single need. Honestly its really tough, and I kind of fear if I will cope, if I have the strength to juggle those occasional crazy days at work and meeting our baby's needs, managing the household. I don't doubt that I will be able to overcome all the challenges, I know I am strong & determined enough to do all that is required, but I am afterall human. I am afraid that I will not be able to give and do my best for Isabelle, that I may compromise her best interest in my moment of tiredness or when I get too caught up with work.

The irony of it all is I am coping better than expected. It is 2 more weeks before hubs goes on his assignment, and I am surprisingly calm about it. I guess learning to trust in God helps. I often pray that He will provide for us, that He will look after our needs, and I pray to have faith and trust in his plans for us as a family. Maybe this is His plan for us, for our brighter future, for a better life for the family. And so I will hold on to this faith, I will be strong. My other source of strength is my parents. Throughout this decision making process, they have continuously given me (and us) their support. I know I can count on them in any emergency, that they will do a good job in looking after Isabelle's needs in exactly the way I want to. Their support gives me great assurance & encouragement that I am doing great as a mother, and that is the best affirmation I can get cos they are parents too, and they understand the effort and difficulties that I go through.

I'm not sure if I will be so positive nearer the time honestly. Its scary to be separated, its scary to take up the sole responsibility of mother & father to Isabelle. Isabelle is growing bigger now, and I am sure she can sense the presence of a mother and father beside her, and my fear is she will forget daddy, thus the bigger role & responsibility for me to always build up that bond, to remind her about what a family means, that we love her so very much. 1 year is a short time some may so, but in 1 year, many things can change. I hope in this 1 year, we will grow closer as a family, we will develop stronger relationships, and I will be able to raise Isabelle up well.

Stay Strong!