Separation Anxiety

Separation anxiety, not the toddler but Me!

And so, over the weekend, we decided to let Isabelle try sleeping on a mattress in the same room as us. Previously she was co-sleeping with us on the bed which gave us various body aches due to the odd & quirky positions we had to be in to facilitate her tossing & turning. Well, it went really well. Isabelle loved the idea of her super big mat (yes, that's what she calls her mattress). She looked forward to bedtime, had a wild time jumping on the mattress (we always had to restrain her from jumping on the bed) and walking up and down the mattress so easily (no climbing required!)

Today, the husband leaves for work again, and it's just Isabelle & me. And i thought she would want to co-sleep with me. Unfortunately not. She was looking everywhere for a her super big mat. Where is the mat????? I want my mat!!!!!

Honestly, I should be happy, cos this is a good transition to her sleeping in her own room. But part of me actually feels sad. For the last 6 months, she has been my companion in those lonely nights. There are nights (and days) when I just stare at her, and talk to her as she sleeps, cuddle her...and she would respond by snuggling back to me. And now my little gal seems all so grown up, she wants her own bed....and soon, her own room.

What an irony that I'm having separation anxiety. I'm honestly so tempted to carry her back onto my bed, except that I am really sick with a flu and co-sleeping would just mean passing on the virus to each other. So all I can do is stare down below at her on the mattress, and wished my hands were long enough to stroke her head. Oh well, I guess at least we are still in the same room....for now. SOBS!