Sowing & Reaping

You reap what you sow. Obvious statement, and we all work on this concept in our lives. Only problem is, we focus on the materialistic aspect most of the time.

We work hard in our careers => to climb the corporate ladder
We save money => hoping for good retirement years

But what we often lack, is cultivating that relationship with God and mankind.

I am humbled by today's reading, cos it reminds me of how God has been walking this journey with me the past year. In my darkest moments, he gave me comfort, courage & strength to continue on. Many people who know my circumstances ask how I do it? Honestly, it is not by my own strength but because God is with me. In all my growing up years, I have never felt HIs presence stronger than now. And because of that, I am determined to grow stronger in my faith.

Unfortunately, today I am also reminded of my in-laws who have neglected us. Since CNY, they have not visited us once despite taking holidays and short trips. I can count the number of times they have called us. D says it's their lifestyle and its hard to change them, but they do care in their own ways. BUt isn't love about sacrifice? I am not asking for them to change their lifestyles for us, all I am asking is 1 weekend to see their grandchild. In time to come, I know Isabelle will not know about their daddy's parents. Whose fault will that be? Is it my wrongdoing for not raising her up well? All I can say is, you reap what you sow. Don't blame the child, don't blame me! Cos I never meant to stop Isabelle from loving you, but if this is the way you show your love, the child will judge for herself if your love is sincere.

Anyway, I don't mean to turn a reflection into a ranting & rambling. Honestly, I am thankful to be reminded "Sowing = Reaping". The harvest you get is the result of the efforts you sow. I see my harvest in Isabelle's delight in seeking comfort from me, the joy she has when we are together...and I want to have that harvest of having a special relationship with God. I know I must be somewhere there, cos when I pray, I feel Him giving me comfort & strength. Dear Lord, please continue to enlighten me, and in time to come, I hope I can let go of that pain, that burden, that grudge that I have inside me.