The year 2011 has been one filled with ups & downs, bitter & sweet experiences.
The greatest decision we made was to let D work overseas for 1 year, as we thought that this was probably the best time given Isabelle is still rather young and we had a helper. Alas... it was during this time that the helper started to slack more and more; perhaps taking advantage of the situation and bullying me knowing I am dependent on her. We made the biggest decision to send the helper home in Nov when Isabelle started full day childcare, but alas, she fell ill very often, and it was really difficult making arrangements for someone to be home to care for her when D could not come back and I had to work. I am most thankful to my parents for their love and support and sacrifices; that they were able to help out during this time. And also to my bosses at work; I have lost count on the number of times I had to come to work late after bringing Isabelle to the doctor, or taking emergency leave or asking to work from home. Unfortunately, I am also most upset by the lack of support, concern and help from the in-laws. D feels equally disappointed in them, but it's his parents after all...and the hurt is even deeper for him. I'm just thankful that he has been very supportive of me & my decisions and has never blamed me for the negativity i feel towards his parents.
On a happier note, I'm so delighted to watch Isabelle grow. It seems just like yesterday when she was a tiny weeny baby in my arms, but the truth is she will be turning 2 in just a few more months. Isabelle is such a fiery character...there are days where she irritates me like hell with her tantrums and screams, and yet there are days when she is so sweet and happy, it brings a smile to my face just thinking of her. I love the times she showers us with kisses (big loud ones), pats us on our head to say thank you, runs out to me when she sees me, squeals in delight when we tickle her or play peek a boo... She is also able to express herself and verbalise a lot more her wants & needs.
For 2012, I pray that Isabelle grows stronger and healthier. I pray that our family can be together always. I pray that my parents will be healthy always. I pray for my brother who is getting married. I pray that I will grow stronger in faith.
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